I don't know anything for sure. / by uncaged

I don’t know anything for sure except that I don’t know anything for sure.

I know that I love outside my class, and that the emptiness of introversion has filled me with an unspeakable longing of being.

I feel separate, and impossible.

I feel like too much, and not enough.

I need space and closeness and a spanking and two bits worth of advice from someone who understands my lust and greed. 

I know that nobody else sees how smart I am and that nobody else knows how stupid I can be. 

I breathe in the smoke of make-believe and beg of the universe for just one taste of those lips before I die inside. 

I don’t know anything for sure, except I want to be a girl that a man like you could love.

I want to be a girl who doesn’t cry for unrequited emotion and doesn’t waste time on silly ventures that make time pass easier alone. 

I want to give myself over to the universe and trust that someone else can take your place. 

I don’t suppose it’s possible that all the world has gone insane except you and me.

 

I don’t dream of you anymore;

I’ve forgotten how to dream.